The Reason










I love how you hold me. I love how you tell me i'm beautiful. I love how you look at me funny when i say something stupid. I love how you make me happy. I love how you smile when i see you. I love how you laugh when i say something random or stupid. I love how you laugh when i snort when i laugh. I love how you make me feel. I love how you tell me i look cute. I love how you mock at me looking at my pajamas. I love when we sang a hundred of old song together. I love how you say sweet thing for me. I love how you push me to learn how to massage. I love how i can talk to you for hours about anything, and you listen and listen. I love accompany you when you got stuck at traffic. I love how you sound when i woke you up. I love how you want to spend everyday with me. I love how you squeeze my hand. I love how you rub my back and kiss my neck. I love how you lay next to me and tell me everything's perfect. I love how you see the person i really am. I love how we say we perfect for each other. I love how you make me cry for the good thing, for the bad thing, for everything. I love how i anticipate seeing you. I love how you kiss me. I love how i look at the empty space in my bad and somehow i imagine you. I love how i get nerveous when i see you, but i fell more comfortable with you than i do with anyone elsse. I love how you deal with my picky eating habbits or when we looking for food i always said "up to you". I love when you pay for me when we go to places. I love how you insist everything will be allright and make me feel at ease. I love how you keep me warm when i'm cold. I love how i am important for you. I love when you rush from work to pick me up. I love when you pick me up at the office. I love when i see you smiling with your pimple pop up. I love how you make me happy everyday. I love when you make sure i stay i line. I love how i only want to be with you. I love how i only think about you. I love how i stop everything because i get distracted and have to call you. I love how you get jeleous. I love when you are with your family. I love when i  tell you that i need to steal your 5 minutes. I love when i talking with you for hours. I love when we're doing video call and showing ugly face. I love being around you and your sister. I love how we talk about future. I love how you tickle me. I love when you said i have great body. I love how you play your hand at my head. I love how you get mad when someone says something to upset me. I love when we travel around the city with you. I love the way you look when youre sleeping. I love cuddling with you. I love when you call me "babe".I love your touch. I lobve when you peeking up my soul. I love when you accept me the way i am. I love when i tell you my past and you hug me tight. I love you when you annoyed me. I love you because you actually put effort into me. I love you because you always make me feels like i am worth something. i love you because you have naturing nature and you take care of me. I love you when you make me smile when i almost forgotten how to. I love you because you have honest and pure heart. I love you and everything detail about you. I love everything about you.

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