A cup of Tea

I don't know where to start, I never do like this to anyone or something. But, just read this out and loud. I wanna say thank you to you because you are the person who most understands me. When I'm happy you're happy too and you never want to destroy my happiness. When I'm sad you always talk softly and try to comfort me again. When I'm angry, you're always trying to bring my mood back and always talk carefully and softly. You never force if I don't want to You're the first person I'm looking for when I wake up to sleep until I want to sleep again. You're my favourite person I met. Don't leave me, I want you to stay with me. I want to spend my time with you. I want happy with you. I want to reach our dream together. I need you. You're absolutely perfect. I  Love everything about you. Your sound makes me miss you every day, your brown eyes get stuck in my mind whenever you look at me, your bare face when you just wake up from your sleep, y...

I think the reason it hurts so fucking bad is because of how much I loved this. I have never loved anything in my life as much as I have loved him. And now that it's ending. I guess I finally realized exactly how big of a part has been of who am I today. Having to leave something I poured my heart and soul into, let me tell you that shit isn't easy. And I think, maybe for the first time ever, I truly understand what it feels like to have your heartbreak into a million pieces.  The feeling of happiness that I felt when I am with you is different. I laugh harder with you. I feel more myself with you. I trust you with me the real me. When something goes wrong or right or even when I hear a funny joke or I see something bizarre, you're the first person I want to talk about it.  Isn't it funny?. I'm enjoying my hatred so much more than I ever enjoyed love. Love is temperamental. Tiring. It makes demands. Love uses you, changes its mind. But hatred, now, that's someth...